Monthly Archives: June 2017

I Am


I get up early

And walk to the field  just as light peaks over

The ridge.

The birds sing me welcome.

I hear rustling in the grass

And am met with the pleasant stare

Of a doe.

I look around and see another doe.

One has two fawn and the other three.

I sit and feel my heart


Here is where I am always welcomed.

Here is where I am 


I am not broken nor am I lost.

I am.




Acid in my veins.

Tumultuous twisting in my gut.

I am finding my way blind

In this storm.

(I see the Angels everytime  lightening strikes)

This confusion has left

Obstructions I stumbled upon,

My visibility restricted to my hands

As i catch myself.

Waiting for  lightening

To cauterize the ache.

(I see Angels everytime it strikes)



Why does it have to be 

So difficult?

It doesn’t have to be so difficult.

When you have to be right,

You just have to win.

Thinking everyone is out to get you

And knock down your walls.

It is not that complicated,

You make it all so complicated.

Fighting with ghosts and projectiles

You throw at yourself

Then you blame everyone else

When you get hurt.



You can take pen to paper

And write how lovely she is,

How your heart beats steady when you are

With her.

She will think it was for a girl long gone,

The one you could not have.

You could play her songs of love

And hold her close.

She will believe that you dream of someone 

Else with more beauty,

More elegance.

You could hold her hand and draw her near,

She will never believe

She is good enough,

Smart enough,

Strong enough,

Pretty enough.

She will always believe you want more of someone else.