Monthly Archives: January 2016

Another Wave


You hold yourself steady

As another wave rolls in.

Which is most frightening

When you feel it begin,

Knowing what lies between or what is at the end?

Invisible slips and invisible falls.

The faceless voices who taunt;

 And from shadows


Going from gladness

(In deeper)

To sadness

(In deeper)

To madness

(In deeper)

To the darkness within.

The flesh feels alive and well

While the mind makes itself a home in

An unseen hell.

As You Are


I will leave you as you are

If that’s what you like.


I can return at sundown.

You can put your hand in mine

If that’s what you like.

And place your head on my shoulder.

The world goes on.

The noise continues outside

As warm smiles get colder.

But here there can be just you and I.

Heat from within

If that’s what you like.

One of Many Memories of You


I think of how cancer raged your blood

And bones against you.

How it wasn’t fair

For we were only twelve.

We had too many laughs left.

I think of your crooked smile and how you shared it all the while.

Sometimes I think of the mud puddle and your wig.

How the broken kids from the neighborhood

(just like us but not)

Took it and threw it so carelessly,

 Thinking they were funny.

Just a good old game of keep away they said.

We tried to catch it but they were bigger and faster.

Then we gave up and they got bored.

You didn’t cry but I did.

Anger and sadness.

They laughed the whole while yelling obscenities as they walked away.

I picked it up,


Soggy, muddy brown wig.

I saw your shoulders drop. My heart screaming for there was no reasoning.

You smiled. No words to be said. Just a knowing between us at that moment.

You so brave. So big in my eyes.

You were so tired and thin. It’s the last time I walked you home.

I love you forever and always.

We were only twelve.