When I Move,
When I dance, sing or speak,
I am all countries
And language recalls the root of one.
I am the beauty of the stillness in every flowing moment,
A galaxy believed to be contained
And constructed in the mind.
Universal ancestral beat
From the beginning to the future existing beyond.
More than mere cosmos conception.
Hear it. Be.
Alternate celestial awakenings.
Harmonious cell vibration.
Close your eyes and become.
Black off the shoulder dress,
Patterned with little pink flowers.
Tan and sand brushed.
Last time I wore it was in Egypt.
A beautiful night, it was.
Clear and star filled.
I feel everything all at once when I look at.
Dancing long after they hurt.
Laughed and smiled so much;
People thought I was drunk.
It has a hole in it I never fixed,
I kept it anyway.
So there it hangs with a variety of other
Time to sew it up or let it go.
They snuggled in close as could be;
She buried her face in the blanket.
He whispered softly,
“It‘s okay to cry you know.”
She lifted her gaze to his,
“But i am so afraid,
So fearful i will drown in myself.
That i will be so ugly to you.”
And in his eyes she felt his reply,
“Let yourself go.
You think you will drown
But this is where you become yourself,
You are more.
I felt your soulshine upon arrival here. Birth.
This is how the roots are hydrated my
Love, and this is where one
In the letting go.”
In the ache of loneliness
I learned to love myself.
In learning to love myself
I have found a peace
No human can offer.
I was taught to
Swallow my tears.
Keep them within,
Becoming bloated with grief.
My blood saturated with salt
Heart so heavy
And lungs drowned with self inflicted water,
I could no longer stand.
I could not absorb oxygen needed to keep warm nor fully breathe,
Could not pump blood through my own veins to live.
Not knowing that to cry was such strength
For those surrounding me
Claimed it as
A winning of some kind to break another more than yourself.
I still cry in the dark.
I never said I was perfect.
Levitation in your presence.
Instincts in the craving of the more.
Inevitable raptures in unfathomable depths.
Permeate me with your being.
Rupture this earthly fabric of time
With love that can no longer be