I draw a hot bath, pouring generous amounts of bubble bath under the faucet.
I immerse myself slowly as the temperature of the water is a bit too hot.
White tub, white shower curtains,
White noise fan.
Sleepy eyelids closing.
I want to stay here and dream.
The water is getting chilly
And the faucet is dripping ice cold drops on my toes,
Reminding me this is no fairytale.
The fan is singing to me
And no one is asking me questions now.
I will stay just a little longer.
Linger just a little longer.
Linger just a little longer
As tears trickle
Down my skin eventually mixing with the bath water.
I will merely imagine
I am adrift in the ocean.
Water droplets merging
On a blade of grass
As the morning sun breaks
Through the horizon creating warmth and
I walked on
I watched the
I hear the whoosh of the air
On their wings as they glide overhead.
The higher they go
The stronger my heartbeat.
And I heard the brush rustle
Turning just in time
To see 3 deer leaping into my path.
Alert and tentative.
For a moment I expect to see a predator on their heels.
And we gaze into each others eyes for what seems like time indefinite .
And i feel that whole lifetime of anxiety leave my bones.
Stillness fills my cells.
My mind clears and my heart swells.
Peace. I am as i am meant to be.
I find myself by the river where I immerse myself in nature’s song.
I become the water and the stones who mean
Each other no harm.
They merely add to the symphony.
As do I;
This is true.
I sense you but I know
From which direction.
All around me it seems.
Waste no time in learning your lessons this journey
You promised you would find me
Where are you now?
I run knowing I must
Go to the river
There i submerge myself completely
Someday the same water that touches
Will in someway
On it goes,
And on and on.
Whether raindrop, river or ocean
It makes its way to you;
As will my heart.
The faucet drips in the kitchen
The faucet drips in the shower.
I wade into the pool
Immersing myself in waters of emerald.
Floating on until my skin is soaked.
This is all
I will do today.
Watch the clouds and float.
Plant the seed.
Be the the sun.
Be the water.
Be the one who tends to
The soul in need.
Be the one to lend a hand
The weary stand.
While I am in over my head
Through my fingers
To no avail,
They are standing at the wardrobe.
They are deciding which dress
I should wear.