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Battle

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The battle is real

Should i have a glass of wine

Or

Climb in the closet, shut the door and

Sit in the dark?

Teetering on the edge

Of laughter and screams.

Rocking to and fro.

I must remember why i

Am here.
I love so deep

But do not think i am so

Fragile.

My jaw has met fist amongst other things.

Shadows call even though there be

Light

And friendly faces on the street.

Apathy Creeping at my feet.

Once again I retreat from

The invisible forces.
Battling

Battling

With those formless thought shifters.

“Go away!” I say as my worth is not in

Their ungrateful hands.

I write truth on the wall.

I must remember why i am here.
I close my eyes once more and am

Taken to the red dirt

Where I kneel.

Home feels so far but there

It is in my heart. My heart.

How could I forget. Wallowing

In my fears.

I know why i am here.
I let them

Get in my head. I let them twist my mind.

Deplorable thoughts have no control.

Thoughts cannot condemn my soul.

I know why i am here.

Do i?

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Well Worn

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I touch
You

And in that instance

We are

Every emotion,

Memory

Imaginable.

Immersed in eternity itself.

My insides trembling

With

Awareness

Grazing lips feather light

Fervent heartbeats

Against

Skin so soft

And there we are

Holding

Unfaltering

Your eyes upon my

Bare heart

As you too quake in

Awareness

Remembering;
There was a

Well worn path between

Our being

All along.

The Great Wilderness

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I reopened the gate

And went out into

The

Great

Wilderness.

There I returned to the

Life

I new

As a child

And became

The

Peace

I have always carried.

For the birds welcomed me.

The wind embraced me.

The trees received me with a timeless remembering.

The dirt infused my senses with vivification.

The sky opened up in my heart

And the sun became a friend to my soul again.

I recalled this is where I belong.

There,

In

The

Great

Wilderness,

I did live

Once

More.

Letters

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I have kept every letter that you wrote.

I must confess,

I read them from time to time.

My heart swells

As I remember well

Your words even before

The papers unfold.

I grasp them as if they are you,

And hold them to my breast.

It is as though

Doing so might bring you back.

My tears flow.

How I wish you

Had known

How deeply my love was returned.

No Good

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I

Place my feet on the floor.

One step at a time,

I make it to the door.

The ghosts in my mind try to tell me

It’s no good.

I’m no good.

Back to square one.

Wonder what I would have done

Differently.

But it’s no good.

I’m no good.

I have never thought

I was any good.

I got so far.

I got so close.

How was I to know

Those words you spoke out loud

Would leave me trampled

In the crowd

Of

Ghosts

In my mind.

In my bed.

They are punishing me in my head.

And now I am trying to remember what it is you told

Me

I

Had done that made

Me

This way.

No good.