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There are times this sorrow,




Has grabbed her and yanked her under ;

Beneath the undertow before She can take a breath.

It is then that She has learned to breathe in the water;

Even if She can’t move She keeps breathing.

She stops struggling

and eventually She floats back to the surface;

Someplace unrecognizable.

Someone unrecognizable to her.




One of

Our greatest fears is admitting accountability;

For then we must see our words and actions

Do make a difference in this world.

Each of us contribute to both the pain and joy.

Until we face ourselves and change our awareness of our own selves,

Reactions of heart and mind,

We allow ourselves to be merely pawns.



Fear so deep you tremble and hold yourself tight so as not to lose your bladder. Fear.

And you begin to lie to keep the peace.

The light nearly beat out of you by words,

open hand, back hand.

You lie.

Smile out the door,

No one knows.

No one knows why you jump with a start so easily. They tease, you laugh.

Always hoping no one knows your name.

(Please don’t say it.

Nothing good happens when you hear your name)


The unspoken understanding in trauma experienced between family members.

The ever unpredictable behavior of a parent.

The unprovoked attacks.

The silent body language used to communicate

Between those abused.

Speak in rhyme and riddle a code never shared beyond these walls.

The eyes,

The slight gestures unnoticeable to others

In moments of extreme panic.

What will happen next?

Don’t speak,

Don’t move,

I will take the hit, you move.

I will carry you again and again for i would rather bleed and bruise than watch you get beat.

The laughter when you are safe,

Nervous smiles of relief.

Heal and save your energy for the next unexpected round.

Even though you know it is coming

You keep this little light of hope………

No one talks of hell. You are so damn brave and no one knows.

And so you go by many names and it leaves confusion. Even when you tell them, they don’t remember and you believe it doesn’t matter anymore.