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Wretchedness 

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Wretchedness has

Shackled me to my bed today.

She is a most

Undesirable visitor.

Knows me so well.

Waits until i am so weak and weary,

Deceives me

And preys upon my thoughts

Piling on one after another.

Smothering me, keeping me writhing 

And gasping for oxygen.

(She knows me so well)
I open my eyes and try to look away

But I get entranced by her siren song,

So deadly yet so serene

And i must just see her,

Must hear her.
My body settles into the sheets.

Gone.

Come time, minutes or hours

Or longer

Til I overpower her;

Wretchedness.

I rise to touch the sun, my eyes catching 

Glitter that remains

Twisted in my sheets,

And I am momentarily blind.

Despair

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He (she too) knows he is called strange
And beautiful in the same breath.

His (her) delight in life contagious

But then

Given time and 

And the right mix of elements

He (she does) crashes

And no words nor touch

Can reach him.

Blinded and numb.

He regresses.

He recoils.

(She turns within)

For no one can save him and he knows this.

They do not fathom the depths

Of despair.

(She knows)

He can hold his breath longer

For he knows at the surface

The darkness waits unbidden.

It always waits

Unbidden and unseen by others.

(They do not see it

They do not feel it)

And they lose patience

Going on their way 

To fill their own void for they cannot hold their 

breath any longer.

(She is still there)

And he resurfaces.

Returns from the untime

To be aware.

Skin tender, jaw tight

Legs jelly

And goes on.

Invites others from empty tables to join him.

Holds others when their arms are too full

And smiles

Because he is thankful they have not swam so 

deep into the darkness as he.

(He sees remnants of shadows on her eyes)

Agony

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Terrified to be overwhelmed

Some days there is nothing left
The fight of the agony
Has left me
Exhausted
Again i float
As numbness claims
Me
Extremities lifeless
To separate
Feelings
From matter
My mind shouts
Get up
Get up
You are alive and well
My mind shouts
You are nothing
You are no one
You are a minute speck
Heart-
Heavy and heated as if standing on the sun
The brightness blinding me to life
Eventually i embrace it and love i become
I always come through
I always come through