The longest ache.
Tears form in the corner of my eyes when
I remember the magic i felt,
The beauty I witnessed.
And I remember wiping
The red dust from my cheeks
So long ago.
The joy and the wonder a new sight can
The souls one meets that love a song.
I did not believe.
It was another life now
And then another
And here I am still in wonder.
The longest ache sears through my veins.
The yearning remains.
The ancient beats within my heart reverberate
Through time unseen in synchronization with those who came before
And those yet to come.
A red cardinal over there,
A mesquite tree over here.
Mother Nature shows me many creations.
The smell of wet saltgrass and dirt
Fill my senses.
This oak tree I am under,
Her leaves shine as if coated in silver
As raindrops sparkle setting delight afire
Within my heart.
Nature presents herself
The individual decides whether she is beautiful or not.
You locked me in a room
Then turned off the circuit breakers leaving me
Alone in the dark.
You knew I was terrified of ghosts,
Turning up the music to drown out my cries.
Telling me the demons were waiting to
Devour me whole;
To take my soul.
You did not know that they would
Turn and take care of me.
You did not know my Warrior Ancestors were there and would teach me
That love is the spark within that never
I was not alone.
I learned to dance with my Ancestors and our
Beauty created an indistinguishable fire
I learned a timeless courage
And smiled at the challenge you created.
For without you
I would have never experienced
All this firsthand.
People would have spoke of these things and I would
Have dismissed them as crazy.
Now I am one of them.
Of morning light piercing
Through singular beads of
Clinging to green grass and wildflowers
This side of the highway.
Simple refractions of
Such an uncomplicated masterpiece.
And I believe in magic.
Nature does not force
How blessed are we to witness a thing such as
I have seen the moon and the sun outside my
The same moon and sun which have followed
Throughout my life on many continents,
They have been
In the same big sky
Watching over me.
Sometimes they whisper,
“From here you look so beautiful,
Why do you continue to
Problems are so big
And your beauty so small?”
And suns have come and gone
Since you embarked on this journey.
Your feet light with
When you took your first steps
Now have become heavy
Impatience and doubt.
Remember your heart.
Remember your heart beating.
Remember the blood coursing through your veins.
Such life. Such beauty.
The moon and sun are still there with you and
They will not give up.
You will not give up.
Remember your heart.
Remember your heart beating,
And open your eyes.
Open them fully.
Breathe many breaths.
Open your eyes.
Truly you know, if you wish,
You can fly.