And I never want to
Hurt like that again
I have been fearful,
So very afraid.
And I hesitate, my feet placed lightly
As I hold my breath before
Pressing forward completely;
Eyes wide open,
Telling my tears to stay tucked away,
Wait a little longer.
It is not in my head nor irrational
For those things did happen leaving bruises on heart on skin,
Not happening merely once or twice.
Over and over.
In psyche I go deep.
Begin once again.
One step forward and breath.
Wait and observe, Listen and feel.
Muscles coiled around heart ready to retreat.
Consciously release tension;
Release grip on self.
Exhaustion sets in every muscle.
Replenish heart and mind
And begin again
With tomorrow’s sunrise.
Beauty and joy seep into depths slowly and lovingly
Sweet dreams start to outnumber nightmares.
Ever so tenderly reanimating hope.